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Balance

Well hello there my fellow MEF Heads,

I’m sure you missed me. I have been away for so long because I’ve been trying to get my life together slowly, but surely. In the past couple of months I have had two new jobs and I have had quite entertaining experiences, to say the least. The first job I got this year was the restaurant job mentioned in my Retail or Restaurant story, so I’m not even going to reminisce over that. After quitting that job, I decided to take a break from stressing myself out and actually focus on my internship and school. But once again I had the urge to get a new job. It’s like this sweet tooth urge I can’t kick…

My friend, and fellow MEF Head, Adrianne asked me if I wanted to work at her job at this boutique hotel. She told me about her experience there so far and how everyone was really cool, so I decided to hand in my resumé. When I came in to give my resumè, I had an on-the-spot interview. It went well. I was confident and felt as if I was making a connection with the hiring manager. He was cool and very open about himself. From then I knew this job might be something I would want to keep.

My first day at work was cool. Of course your first couple of days of working will be filled with training and making sense of your new-found work environment. I only worked on Fridays and the weekends so I wasn’t stressed about anything. I would come in, do my job, fraternize here and there, then leave and enjoy the rest of my day. But gradually something came over me. I started to feel fatigued and stressed. I guess I forgot to mention that I had just started my last year in college and projects were beginning to pick up at my internship. I had new obligations and deadlines to meet and I could no longer find the time in the day to fulfill these tasks. I guess that the ending of summer just skipped over my head when I decided to take this job. From then I would start coming to work late or even on one occasion call out because I decided to party the night before. I was struggling. I was trying to maintain having a social life, getting good grades in all of my 4 classes, meeting deadlines for video projects at my internship, and most importantly SLEEP! In just a couple of weeks I felt irritable and uneasy about life in general. There was just one question at this point…What the fuck am I doing?

Then lo and behold something happened that made me think heavily about what I was doing. On a regular Friday morning my alarm went off for 4:30. I was scheduled for my usual 8-4. I ignored my alarm and went back to sleep. I woke up at 6:59 and thought to myself, “Fuck! I’m late to work!” As I scrambled around my room trying to get ready, texting my supervisor to alert her, and texting Adrianne to tell her that I screwed up big time, I suddenly had an epiphany. I laughed and said to myself, “Man I quit. I’m over this! I just can’t do it.” I was growing tired of watching myself screw up over and over with a job that was so easy. Some might say I gave up, but it was something I had to do. I called my supervisor and told her I quit. After arguing for about 5 minutes, she said, “Thank you.” in a voice of distress and I said, “Thank you for everything.” And right after that I went to sleep.

When I woke up hours later feeling refreshed, I went out with Adrianne and other friends and enjoyed having one less job. At this point in life I realized that there is nothing more important than having your sanity. I was slowly, but surely losing my mind all due to stress. As much as I tried to plan my days out in accordance to my priorities I just couldn’t. I was doing too much and there was no balance. I was too busy juggling all of these things and sooner than later everything began to fall apart. In the end I’m glad I woke up late that day. It made me realize that my sanity and peace of mind was most important in accomplishing what’s necessary.

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